So much better.

Today was so much better and I literally stopped working (for the day) 15 minutes ago. *And I just realized I don't have the post times at the bottom of each entry so it was 8:15pm. (in case you were wondering)

Yes the stress is still there but I got some more concrete answers about the moving truck and the movers we've hired to pack the truck, and that made me feel a lot better.

Also I packed for quite a while last night and cleaned up a lot of stuff. And I finally sold the two twin beds we have. Granted it's for a lot less than they're worth but I don't think people are used to finding quality for sale and also it's a crap economy and people like a deal. It's finally gotten to a point that I have to sell them for anything otherwise I'd have to pay to get rid of them. They're the one thing I can't donate because of the possibility of bed bugs (not in my beds mind you, in general) so I'm glad that another thing is sliding into place.

I just can't think about how short the time is or it's back to head between the knees hyperventilating and then having to go for a run because movement is honestly the only thing that calms me down.

I know weird right?

This is not funny.

I might be going crazy.

I was going to write on Monday but that really felt like a day I would just rather have my head between my knees so I wouldn't hyperventilate, and so I didn't write, the anxiety was too much.

It just feels like there is so much to do and since I am a person of action this waiting in between (aka. having to work and not being able to pack all day), fretting over money, timing and packing is about driving me out of my mind. (I appreciate that my husband is a strong person and can handle when I snap at him in moments of stress) It will be such a relief even just when the truck is packed and on it's way and all I have left to do is clean the house and pack my car. I'm pretty sure I'll feel a huge sigh of relief. That or I'll start worrying about the drive and expenses while driving.

Have I ever mentioned I'm a type A personality that desperately tries to be a B and fails miserably?

Yeah, that.

Also it didn't help my nerves that I was sexually harassed in my office on Monday. All I have to say is that Noop has great timing and walked into the back office mere seconds before it got any worse.

I can get through this. Now to just repeat this to myself about a thousand times while I pack faster the rest of this week and clean my house.

Yes I have to do a cleaning before I clean it all because my little sister is coming into town tomorrow and I'm so frickin' excited to see her because it's been too long.

Oh also I've figured out the whole furniture situation, I'm donating it. St. Vincent De Paul will come pick it up not this weekend but next and now all I have to sell is the bed, at least that helps.

Okay back to work people.

I need some coordination... Oh wait, you already knew that.

So two nights ago I ran my left knee into... something I can't remember what (this is apparently how often I do this). And tonight I ran my right knee into the coffee table (it's fresh in my memory because I'm still trying to not curse about how much it hurts) because I was gifted with so much coordination... Oh wait that was flexibility which apparently means all my coordination was taken away because you don't get both.

This is the point where you keep your examples that prove me wrong to yourself because I have lovely red marks across both my knees. (No one cares about Ginger Rogers.)

I told my boss this evening that I'm formally giving my notice tomorrow because I'm moving (and moving is said in a really high sing song voice, fyi) and so tomorrow evening when I get home I'm going to post that crap on facebook. It will be nice to not have to keep such a secret anymore because it's gotten harder as the weeks have gone on. I've caught myself from slipping so many times.

And I'm currently addicted to knitting Alice gloves. I've knit 5 pairs so far in the past three weeks.

These are Alice gloves.

Picture from Ravelry dot com

Apparently I'm in love with them.